Thursday, January 27, 2011

A Late Rebellion?

I chose whatever picture came up first on google. lol.

If you were to ask my mother or any member of my family if I ever went through a phase of rebellion in my teens, or at any point of my life, they would tell you that I didn't. My mom likes to tell the story of when I was a toddler and how I would sit very "ladylike" in my little frilly dresses, with the adults or off drawing somewhere by myself, while all the other children ran around and yelled. I was an active child, playing all sort of sports until my teens, but I knew when and where it was acceptable. I didn't talk back to my parents (or I don't remember ever doing it) nor did I ever miss curfew. Even when I went through my concert years, frequenting places such as the Roxy and the Troubadour as much as 4-5 times a week in my late teens, I always got home right after the concert was over. I didn't date guys neither of my parents approved of. Basically I was the textbook definition of a goody two shoes. I did some stupid things in my teens, don't get me wrong, but it was never out of rebellion. Despite being this way, I've found myself relishing in defying authority at school. Could this be a late rebellion?

I should say that while I do rant and rave on twitter and Facebook a lot, I'm actually laughing a good majority of the time... and I laugh at the ridiculousness that is being "taught." I need a sense of humor to survive at this school. (And, yes, I'm currently sitting in the commons typing this). My professors are treating me better and are trying to help me out so that I actually ace my courses this semester (huh, I wonder if it's the green scapular that goes everywhere with me...) but I still disagree with basic things that are taught. Could you sit in class while hearing things like "goddess existed before religions" and then saying that Our Lady is basically a goddess, blah blah blah? How about when hearing that by existing everyone is doing sex? Wait, wait... how about the "fact" that no one is completely heterosexual or homosexual and that we're at least 90% of one and 10% of another and that that's how God made us? Can you blame me for wanting to contradict them and/or for speaking out more than usual?

The thing is that I actually feel bad that I do "talk back" when they say something. They are being nice to me as a person but I still feel like my beliefs are being attacked. I know they are trying but, man oh man, what I wouldn't give for someone to go in and ask them to stop with the heresy/blasphemy. So, am I rebelling because my beliefs are attacked, as is my beloved Faith and Church, or am I just going through a phase? I don't know. Like I said, maybe it's a late rebellion. *shrugs*

Anyway, just wanted to get this off my chest and out in the open. I have Death and Afterlife in about 15 minutes so I should get moving. I hope we don't watch another euthanasia video because the one from Tuesday left me feeling depressed and teary eyed for about 24 hours. What can I say? Seeing people suffering, and especially seeing people want to end their lives because of the suffering, really affects me.

I hope everyone has had a great week thus far. :)

As always, thanks for reading and God bless. :D


Will said...

Emmy, I think that this 'rebellion' is a good thing. You have something other than yourself to fight for, and if I do say so myself, our Church and our Lady are worth it. Don't pull any punches, silence is a powerful weapon in the enemies hands, educate those around you and pray for them. Know we are praying for you, and God bless you.


Emmy Cecilia said...

Thanks, Will. :)

lestersalle said...

If you can undertand spanish this podcast will enlighten you a litle bit.

Click on 14 may 2010.

Basically he talks about the difficulty to keep his catholic identity when he was in university.

Emmy Cecilia said...

I am bilingual so I will understand it, thanks. :)

cymbert said...

Since the beginning of the Church those who have stood up for the Truth have been persecuted so you can count yourself among the Saints:) I admire your strength and perseverance. Rebel on!!