I couldn't shake the awful feeling so I called my doctor's office this afternoon. It's been over a week since I had the CT scan done and they hadn't called me back with the results. So, I called... and I got them... sort of.
I'm not going to drag it out so I'll just tell you that they found three things... well, 3 things that I was told of.
First, I was told of a cyst that I've had since birth that I've never had removed because I've never needed to get it removed. I've known about it for over a decade so that's not new to me. I think it's gotten to the point where it needs to go and thus a possible surgery to get it removed may be in my future.
Second, they found something on my chest wall. I don't know if the pain I've been having since late March is what they found because they weren't able to clearly explain things to me over the phone. I have a feeling that's the round lump/bump I've been feeling though. I've often said it feels like it's more on the wall/skin area. It only hurts when I eat and it expands or I touch it so it may be that. I don't know if it's a tumor or something else; I just know they found something in the area and I'll have to wait to learn more about it.
The third one is the one that has me a bit more worried. They found a couple of liver lesions. I don't know if they're benign or cancerous because, again, they couldn't explain things very well over the phone. All I know is that they found them and I have to wait to find out more about them.
I was referred to an OB for the cyst they found (the one I've known about for years) and, so far, I don't think they have me scheduled for anything beyond that. I have to wait until August 30th for my full results. I have a feeling there's more but, again, I'll have to wait until I get my full results at my appointment.
I would be lying if I said I didn't want to cry because of the fear of the unknown. I don't know if what they found are benign masses, if it's more serious and will require treatment, or what this will mean for me. All I know is that when I heard the news, my mind immediately went to "alright... whose intercession will I be asking?" My default was to go to Bl. Pier Giorgio Frassati but then someone else's face popped into my mind (and then into my heart): Chiara Corbella Petrillo.
Chiara's sainthood cause was just recently opened up by Rome and she's been someone who I've felt pulled towards in recent weeks, even right before I found out about her canonization cause. I think knowing how much she suffered and how she did it with so much grace and faith has inspired me to do things a little differently in my own life. I still don't know if what they found are cancerous tumors and masses or simply benign but I definitely feel moved by the Holy Spirit to start praying for her intercession.
If they're benign, I pray that my doctors do what's best for me and that I am able to wait these 2+ weeks (and however long after) with even 1% of the grace and faith Chiara displayed since my faith has been floundering a bit lately and I'm also prone to think of the worst-case scenarios (I only do this for my own stuff; I'm optimistic about everyone else).
If they're cancerous, I pray that Chiara intercedes for me because, as many of you know, my body doesn't tolerate a lot of medications (or foods) and I can only imagine what treatments would do to my already weakened body.
In your charity, I ask you to please help me ask for her intercession, regardless of the outcome.
That's it for now. I was planning on revealing some news to y'all today but I felt like this took precedence over the other news (which I hope to share on Wednesday).
I hope you all had a lovely weekend and have a great week!
As always, thank you for reading and God bless! :)