Friday, March 26, 2010

Still Fighting Temptations

This Lent has been HARD for me because I've been fighting all kinds of temptations to do really stupid things. Of course, I think that because it is Lent I am having a really hard time. You-know-who is trying hiss hardest to make me slip, and I almost have a couple of times. I haven't experienced this during Lent... or in a long time, really. I'm usually cautious but I've had really bad urges to do some reckless things. It's very unlike myself. A big reason why I have been trying to focus on my schoolwork (to the point where it consumes a majority of my time) is because it'll distract my mind from wandering elsewhere. I have also been trying to work on the novel and baking different kinds of goods I've never tried to make in attempt to thwart any urges that may come. It's all really frustrating!

I haven't really asked St. Michael the Archangel for many intercessions (just twice, if memory serves me right) but I think I may have to because this is all getting ridiculous. I refuse to let these things alter my life. If anyone can spare a prayer intention, I'd appreciate it. I'm going really nuts here. I can't even imagine how bad my confession this week will be. *shudders*

Anyone else having a hard Lent or am I only one? Maybe there should be some sort of support group during this time of the year -- just to make sure none of us slip in a banana peel placed by the enemy.

Alright, I'm going to try to figure out what to do. :-/

Until next time, thanks for reading and God Bless!

2 comments:

graziososeguace said...

Dear Emmy,

I'm so sorry to read about your rough Lent. I'm coming to the end of what one of my dear friends has deemed "the suckiest Lent ever" so I hope that my perspective can be somewhat helpful to you. I was thrown into a desert this Lent, filled with temptation, hurt, envy, and all things negative. After being in here close to 50 days, I have a few positive reflections to offer you about your Lent.

1. It's almost over! Easter is likely to be as wonderful as your Lent was terrible. Rejoice in the upcoming Resurrection of Our Lord, the Feast of His Mercy, and all of blessings this upcoming season holds.

2. Intercessory friends are awesome. I'm glad that you included a prayer request in this post. My best days of Lent, far and away, came when a huge prayer army, which is absolutely no exaggeration, had amassed on my behalf. I have little doubt that your request will bear similar fruit.

3. Our Lord trusts you so much. God doesn't just put anybody in the desert, which is how I would define the lenten experience you described. The Father sent the Son to the desert for 40 days. He sent His son. He sent you. How much He must love you. He knows you can handle it and come through the experience stronger, especially in faith. The grace bestowed upon you will fall like rain during Easter.

You will remain in my prayers and I hope I might be added to yours.

-Annie

graziososeguace said...

Dear Emmy,

I'm so sorry to read about your rough Lent. I'm coming to the end of what one of my dear friends has deemed "the suckiest Lent ever" so I hope that my perspective can be somewhat helpful to you. I was thrown into a desert this Lent, filled with temptation, hurt, envy, and all things negative. The evil one has treated me terribly and Our Lord hasn't rescued me. After being in here close to 50 days, I have a few positive reflections to offer you about your Lent.

1. It's almost over! Easter is likely to be as wonderful as your Lent was terrible. Rejoice in the upcoming Resurrection of Our Lord, the Feast of His Mercy, and all of blessings this upcoming season holds.

2. Intercessory friends are awesome. I'm glad that you included a prayer request in this post. My best days of Lent, far and away, came when a huge prayer army, which is absolutely no exaggeration, had amassed on my behalf. I have little doubt that your request will bear similar fruit.

3. Our Lord trusts you so much. God doesn't just put anybody in the desert, which is how I would define the lenten experience you described. The Father sent the Son to the desert for 40 days. He sent His son. He sent you. How much He must love you. He knows you can handle it and come through the experience stronger, especially in faith. Our Lord doesn't want us to hurt, but sometimes He lets the evil one test us, because He so desperately want us to show Him that we can take it, only because He loved us first.

You will remain in my prayers and I hope I might be added to yours.

-Annie